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Happy Amazing Birthday!

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How can I even know that this is an amazing year ahead? How can I get so excited at the turning of a year? I can’t possibly tell you “how”. I can’t possibly describe the knowing. I only know. I feel it viscerally, I know it in my body as well as in my mind and heart… the joy is in my cells…

OR… Maybe I can tell you that there is an amazing year ahead because I will have nothing less. I now know what I was made for. I now know what is my avocation as well as my vocation. I simply will not be dallying with any other forces.

(Okay.. on that note… I do have to be careful that I do not p*-off the authority figures that I need in this journey. Authority figures that feel it is in everyone’s best interest to subdue me, to ‘knock me down to size’, who apparently need me to act insecure. I don’t want to ACT the part of the scared, needy, and ignorant trainee. But I will need to act deferential, appreciative… Dear God, May this be the worst of the politics to come!)

There is a big (big) ((big)) change coming soon. I am wavering only in the precise timing, and in my trust of myself. But … I am soon to be responsible to no one but myself. I worry about this. I am soon to be needing to stay connected to humanity by other than ‘daily routine’ and habit. I worry about this. There is so much change and growth and Change ahead!! I am sure that it is a good thing that we cannot see all that we will face in our future. We would probably be scared off. But, Oh My Gawd. I cannot tell you how excited I am, how ready I feel, how RIGHT the fit is for this next chapter.

My Encore Career.

My Calling.

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Posted by on March 2, 2010 in Inner Life

 

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Rock towers and Awestruck


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Originally uploaded by terraflora

Okay, so I am not dumbstruck, awestruck all the time. Though.. often!

No, I am still looking at, dealing with the day to day issues of transitions. I have a job, albeit part-time, that keeps paying me. And my gosh, there is the usual fare of navigating career adjustments (shhh: don’t let my employer hear me say “career change”), but now there is this oppressive issue of health care to stare down! (Innit great to be ana Merican?)

But I have to tell you, that regardless of the reasons that others may be finding for digging in (“because of the economy”), holding back (“not the right time”), for keeping what you have, keeping the income, keeping the savings (“what horrors might happen next”)… I happen to find myself more inspired, more invigorated, more excited about this next stage of my life… So much so that NOTHING seems appropriate except to step out boldly and claim this new life!

I wish I could find a way to pull every last individual member of my cohort directly into my heart. I want them to know how much I love them, but I also so want them to know how they have become part of the fabric of my being. The beauties, the characters, the warm and gentle men, the women of depth and strength…. I cannot find the words to suffice. I love them. And they are so much a part of who I have become, who I am becoming. How do you return THAT favor?

I thank God for my time with them!

 
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Posted by on October 25, 2009 in Inner Life

 

Metamorphosis

Wings…
visible?
Not yet perhaps
But so tangible. 
So felt. Known. And powerful.
Perhaps not yet seen.
But the experience has begun.

How do we grow? 
In the soil of good company?
When we are allowed to send our taproots down into the very heart of who we think we may be?
It is, now I know,
When we are held, we are encouraged, we are simply and deeply confirmed.

I am no longer who I was.  I am, yes, also who I was.
But I am now made up of the reconstituted substance from what I used to be.
I am moving into a new template. A new form.
I am being pulled into that new mold
A mold, a template, a form so ancient as to predate the very cellular memory that fills it.

 
 

Tears of the soul

 
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Posted by on July 11, 2009 in family, inspirations

 

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Iranians are now fellow humans; I want to know them!

And thank you Mr. former Vice President for what you have given us. AND what you have either learned from or taught “Ayatollah” Khamenei.

And this is Cheney’s signal contribution to the twenty-first century: he has made the world much, much safer for torture

 
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Posted by on July 1, 2009 in Inner Life

 

How can I catch up!!?? No chance.

I will refrain from any ‘apology’ for being away so long from my posts. After all, an apology rather presumes some dependence or anticipation for my loquaciousness. HA! Who was waiting on me!!!? SO… Let us move on!!

The point is…. HELLLO!!! I have missed YOU!
Okay, okay. So it may be true that I actually have no time to miss each of you individually (or even, for that matter, in small groups) but I think of you OFTEN. I think of experiences unshared and I want to get back on the bandwagon as soon as possible! It may or may not be with this note. Consider this note a Wave Hello, and a Kiss Blown!!

I am about to start my grad school traineeship. What does this mean? (Besides.. yeeee.. next step to making my next transition real!!) This means that the part-time corporate gig (32 hrs/wk) which has given me 3 day weekends (for ‘study’) may have to become even less. And that will mean less income, and MUCH higher prices for my benefits (everything X3!) But… Maybe I am really ready. Maybe I am ready to start draining my savings, so that I can feel engulfed in moving towards my next, my preferred, my ‘encore’ career! (My heart is there… moving away from my cubicle!! Moving towards licensure and my private practice.)

I have more to share. More that has become part of my daily re-calibration about who I am. I am still processing.
But since I am Waving Hello… I will write another entry with the latest self-discovery.

Blessings!! I would HUG each of you if I could!!

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H1N1 – Stay informed

Swine Flu Info

(This, above, is supposed to be a widget. I may be gettin’ a degree, but apparently that doesn’t help me with blog-like communications! :} )

So I find this informative: http://www.cdc.gov/h1n1flu/

Stay healthy, all! Warsh yer hands.

 
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Posted by on May 2, 2009 in Relationships