What does living on the cusp of ‘my life has just begun’ really feel like? Do many people even have a clue? Even ever have a chance to notice? Probably not, because how rare it is to notice a beginning… at the beginning!?
Doesn’t this experience, of major life transition, really belong only to 14 yr olds entering high school? No! matter of fact, they don’t even have a chance of noticing it.
But certainly to 18-19 year olds leaving the confines of predictable schooling and parental oversight, right? Again.. how many 18 year olds notice their interior experience?
For this is wholly an interior experience! Shoot… the frontal lobe isn’t even fully developed until 25, so it would be much later yet (if ever) to use the capacity for the complex cognitive layer that can handle “what do I think of what I think they think of me?”. (Hell. How many adults do that one???)
I don’t think it is till we’re about 29 that we first have a retrospective experience of looking back and thinking… Wow, that’s when my life really started… Or, …what a turning point. It was all different after that.
Yet, right now, fully conscious, I find myself living a cusp (liminal) experience. I am still firmly (4/5ths?) grounded in where I have been up until recently (earnin’ my buck from the corporate gig… and thank god, for the time being, still doing so). I also fully find that I am not only looking over the ridge at the next version of who I am, but that 1/5th (or more) of me is already moving into/resonating with/vibrating in/BEING that new reality that I am transitioning to!
If in all of this process I can do something uniquely valuable, I think it would be the ability to NOTICE (and report) THE LANDSCAPE as I progress. Notice and record.
I am finding out how valued this reflection is: of ‘what the landscape looks like’, ‘See, it’s safe! (Look, here I am!)’. For all of those coming along behind me… Possibly younger. Possibly newer at this. Charge on. And if you can… Notice. Notice what it is like to be YOU in this moment, in this experience!